The Journey Begins!?!?!?!

The journey begins...what a dorky way to start this blog :) I have been wanting to start a blog for ages now and that is the best I can come up with...oh well hang on, here it goes!

Wow, this is a lot harder than I thought it was going to be. I thought "oh just write what you are thinking, feeling, doing etc" Much easier said than done. I feel like I should start this blog four years ago...but here it is almost 2009 and most of our closest family and friends have no idea what we have been going through. Ok enough with the randomness hahaha :) (Sometimes when I look at the sky I see spots) Right Ladies;)

Kenneth and I have had our fair share of stresses in our 3 1/2 short years of being married. Moving away,family issues, grandparents passing away, more family issues, new jobs, evil bosses, building a house, lossing a job, car accidents, more family issues....amid everything that has been going on we wanted to add children to our family. 2 1/2 years ago we decided that is was time to have children. I always wanted to be the fun cute young mom...have several kids (you know 3) all together and retire early to spend time with our grandkids. We knew that it may take some time but we didn't anticipate time, stress, tears, money etc.

Without getting into alot of details after numerous appointments, needles, treatments, tests and any other tourture you can think of...I am infertile with no explanation as to why. All tests say NORMAL....then why can't we get pregnant you ask???? This is the holy grail of questions in our lives right now. After going through all of the stages of grief you can while going through fertility treatments and so on we know that adoption is what God has in store for us. I really think it is funny how we fight God so hard and for so long when our greatest joy will come if we only do what he is leading us to do. I have to admit that I was the biggest road block on our journey to adoption...I felt like a failure, like God was punishing me for something..not that he had something even more wonderful in store for us. I couldn't get past the fact that I could not concieve. All the time I was praying for what I wanted not what God's will was for us. Kenneth on the other hand, my rock, knew what God was leading us to do long before I would accept it.

In March 2008 we took my mom to a Steven Curtis Chapman concert, it wasn't our first concert of his but it is the most memorable. He has always been a big advocate of International adoption and this night really hit us hard, God was screaming at us :)...it just took ME several more agonizing months to realize it. To make a long story short ( I know you are laughing because this is like the longest post ever!) Everything over the last 8 months has been God screaming "I want you to ADOPT" I am now finally hearing for real :)

We are going to be adopting from Ethiopia through Holt International and this blog will chronicle our journey from here on out. I hope you will enjoy my ramblings and I pray that God blesses you through our lives.

Stay tuned:)
God is Great!